VidCon2010

A video in which thetalesend speaks about legally blocking VidCon2010.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YcrT4Q_M6cM

I understand why he wants to know where the money is going, but I think there is a better way to do so. Is contacting Los Angeles schools, malls, hospitals, and traffic councils really the most effective way to ask for a published budget? I fully understand why the LA County Planning Commission and other city councils were contacted, but from the sounds of it, all he seems to want is to know where the money is going. What do schools, malls, and hospitals have to do with the funds of a convention. He seems to have different LA groups and places in a fuss because they are receiving no money from this. Are you required to give funds to the surrounding area when having a conference? I'm honestly curious. What are the legalities and logistics of holding a major convention?

__________

I'm driving down I-55 north (so I suppose I'm driving UP, not down...) through incredibly dense fog. Little traffic. Half tank of gas. I have a little over an hour left to drive when I put in my Memorial CD. I can't sing along with the score, so I'm mumbling along with the Arabic as best I can. It occurs to me that any passing car would just assume I am singing along with whatever hit is top on the chart. (I can't be asked to give an example. My preset radio stations consist of NPR and oldies.) But really, I'm rehearsing for a concert for Carnegie Hall come January.

This was my little secret for the drive home.

I know the Bible says not to kill, but I killed the ACT today.

I feel really good about it. (Maybe a 28?)

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I got mail from AMDA and Juliard. It's sort of shocking..

Liquid Leggings

Positivity is key.

No I am not a motivational poster.

Someone told me I sounded like a second grade teacher, and I took it as a major compliment.

I bought three pairs of leggings today. They are absolutely wonderful. I feel fierce when I wear them.

The new 9weeks starts on Thursday.

I've spent quite a bit of time thinking about this blog entry.

You'd think 100 posts should tell you something about dedication, but it's not like that at all. This is probably one of my most neglected projects ever. And it's no one's fault but my own.

excusesexcusesexcusesexcusesexcusesexcusesexcuses

I've spent the last few weeks reading Kristina Horner's blog (www.italktosnakes.blogspot.com) religiously, and I don't think I have encountered so much dedication. She's been through a lot lately, but not once has she let her blog slip.

Gosh, I'd kill for that much dedication.

Next Week.

I'm going to knit a blanket next week.
I'm going to apply for colleges (at least one) next week.
I'm going to bring my trig grade up to a B next week.
I'm going to get caught up in my online classes next week.
I'm going to mail a Christmas present next week.
I'm going to get all of this done next week.

This can't be healthy...

I was accepted into my online health class today.
Three weeks late.

I have 257 discussion messages unread.


My first assignment is to discuss my emotions.
I think "overwhelmed" covers it.

Your life is like a spaceship with no recognizable components, no rivets or bolts, no entry points, now way to take it apart. It is very shiny and it has no discernible flaws. Or you could somehow smash it into smaller pieces, there would certainly be no way to put it back together again. It simply is.

At no time while living are you unaware that you live a life of complete obsession, of a stretching of the mind and body of a yourself to the point of, we assume, near madness.

But you are a different sort of madman., one in full control of your tools, one who instead of teetering on the edge of this precipice or that, seems to be heading ever-inward, into the depths of memory and the relentless conjuring of a certain time and place that evokes utmost order despite its mayhem.

It's complicated, but there are pleasures everywhere, but there is also a very quiet but very sturdy and constant tragic undercurrent that concerns a people who are completely lost and only want some sort of direction or purpose or sense of community, because who would live if not for a want of connection and thus of love?

Flopper.

I ordered a 1920s flapper dress.

They sent an extra large.

I ordered a small.

We called the company.

They said they were sending the right size.

The box just came.

But they didn't put a dress in the box.

The party is tonight.

I think I might cry.

A Recent Death in my Life

There is something strangely liberating about throwing a pair of shoes away.
There is also something strangely tragic.

Five Stages of Grief:
DENIAL- Honestly, I didn't believe my toes had worked they way out of my sides of my shoes. Those brown, patent leather flats were my absolute favorite, and I am still having a hard time imagining my fashion world without these gems. "This isn't happening. Not now. Not ever. Please. Just let this be a nightmare."

ANGER- The shoes were near and dear to my heart, and my friend are well aware of this. It infuriates me to see my feet peeking out of the sides of my sole. "Who makes shoes like this!? Where is the quality?"

BARGAINING- "If you just wait and break once I find another similar pair of you, shoes, I promise I'll give you a proper burial. Just hold out until I go home soon. You can do it. Come on. It's okay."

DEPRESSION- Having breakdowns in class is not uncommon at this school, so it wasn't all that strange for me to shed a few tears in my Government class. "How could this happen to me? The love of my feet are gone. There is no way of getting another pair of these shoes. WHY did this have to happen now?"

ACCEPTANCE- And just like that. After all of the emotional turmoil, I felt better. I got over it. I moved on. Put the shoes in the trash. And moved on. "Rest in peace, little brown flats."


MIA Brown Patent Leather Pointed Toe Flats: March 17, 2008-August 28, 2009.

Monster Running

It's a known fact that stairwells are made up of concrete and echos. I had to point this out to a friend who nearly ran me over one morning. He said something to someone, made them mad, started running away, and was terrified because he was being chased. By his own footsteps.

Poor thing.

Third Floor Dash

For the entirety of my junior year, I lived on the sixth floor of my dorm. When it comes to female residency, this is as far from the ground as I can get, and I more or less hated it. I had little to no friends near me, and when it comes to being late for class, I had virtually no time to get from my bed to the classroom.

By no means am I saying that I am always late, it's just that now that I'm on the third floor, life is a whole lot easier.

I'm writing songs.

Mississippi School of Death

First thing in the morning, I get on the bus to go to Trig. (I've never taken the bus before. I'm afraid.) This will kill me. From there, I get back on the bus, return to campus, and go to AP Music Theory. This will beat the dead horse. In Government, we will finish the 25 chapter book. That, dear readers, will put me in my grave. From there, I take to online classes at the same time. These two lovely boogers have no problem with spitting on my grave. And lastly, choir: the class full of 39 loud and opinionated divas, will "sing me to heaven."

What might possibly be my favorite part of Art Boarding School is the spontaneity. I receive a text message saying "Come down" from Madee, and despite it being very vague, I figure out there is a guitar jam session going on. So, being the talented guitar star that I am, I grab my Taylor and hit the stairs. Of course I'm nowhere near as talented as the other guys playing, but I sure did enjoy myself. I suppose it was nice bonding time for all of us.

Scheduling

I have fifteen minutes to make a blog, edit it, and get it up.

There's a poster of Kim Kardashian in my bathroom. It's a total joke. I don't know if my suitemates understand that.

I'm signed up for AP Music Theory. Do you understand how insane that is?

Schedule for tomorrow:

Principal's session

Why Art? Seminar

Break

Why Art? II Seminar

Vocal Hooplah.

Tuesday:

Plagiarism Seminar

Technology Seminar

Ettiquette/Professionalism Seminar

Schedule Changes Seminar

I love all of this business business.

The Farmer's Dog

As a form of mandated fun, the entire senior class was called to the cafeteria for a lovely game of BINGO. Now, I, of all people, am an avid fan of BINGO. I know there is no B-24. I know that "Four Corners" will only be counted in the bonus rounds. I know you must announce "BINGO!!!" loud enough to stop the caller from proceeding with the game. It's an exciting game, and I'm always in it to win it. (I refuse to let my nursing home pals down.)

When playing a game with about 60 other people, chances are you won't win much, if at all. But that didn't stop me. I was hunched over my card, ready to win. However, my time never came. I was close. Extremely close. One number away from a double bingo. But fate just didn't have it in for me. And I can accept that.

Sleep deprivation at its finest has finally hit me. I have forgotten the point of this entry. I promise I'll improve. I'm still a little rusty.

For Lee:

Thanks so much for your help. (I apologize for looking utterly horrible.) You are fabulous.

I just can't decide. What's your opinion.

Me vs. I

I posted on my English teachers wall telling her of how I almost made a grammatical error. (I am a grammar FREAK, and I cry when I make a mistake.) Her friend responded saying "lol." Teacher responded to the "lol" telling Carla she didn't understand how serious the matter at hand was though. She said "When it comes to grammar, Blair is more obsessive than me." Clearly it should be "more obsessive than I" because "than" is a subordinating conjunction, making the "am" in "I am" understood. I pointed this out to her and she deleted the post with the error saying she didn't know what I was talking about. She deleted my proof! This caused me to become incredibly light headed because I easily second guess myself.

She has now admitted to her error. And I am starting to feel better.

This entire post is incredibly rushed. I am still having trouble thinking straight.

Again.

Dude. I'm just really good at this. Maybe even too good. Can you be too good at capturing the butt-cut? Is there a major for this kind of thing?

The Joys of that which is the Screen Cap.

In all seriousness, I am not a creepy person in any way. (Sometimes my heart gets too big for my body and I make cakes for celebrities, but I call that love.)

With that being said, I will say this: When watching a YouTube video, there comes a time when you must hit pause and do something. (Whether that be going to the grocery or answering a phone call, I really don't know.) But once in every blue moon, you hit pause at the perfect time and you see something like this:

I tried to resist the "Shift+Command+4" combination, but I know that whenever bad days roll in, THIS will make me feel better. No matter what.

@Hannahcatherine's response to the photo: So I left a dinner party to log on... and see this picture. I thought I was being stealthy until I laughed out loud. This is an epic win.

I have a best friend named Alyce. She is beautiful and smart and talented.
Yesterday, she had a poetry reading in New York City.
Jesse Eisenberg was there.
He asked her to go get coffee.
She said no.

The last time she went to New York, I wrote down my number for her to give to someone.
I didn't do that this time.
I wish I did though.

Hello?

I'm on a slight Internet break this week.

Regular programming will resume shortly. 

Amputation. Black Market. Crayons. Dreaming again. Escalation. Fascination. Graham Crackers. How Much am I? I Spy. Kindergarten. Living the Stereotype. Moving. Omegle. Prizz-om. Radnom. Sleeps. Thursday. Ummm. Wave Hello. 

I'm only missing J, N, Q, V, X, Y, Z to have a blog post starting with every letter of the alphabet. 

All dolled up for a night in a small town. A moment on the train tracks and memory lingering in the air. Breathe it in, sweet bird.

0/100

Every day in my lovely, little Chemistry class, we receive a participation grade. You pay attention and take notes and you get a 100%. 

Well today, that's exactly what I did. I worked along through the droning and complaining, and I learned about the states of matter. However, at the same time, I flipped through the year book. I mean can you blame me? I was pictured hundreds of thousands of times. 

And you know what happens?? I get a 0% for my participation. 

I find this very unfair seeing that I fully participated. 

Maybe the teachers just aren't a fan of multitasking.   humph. 

Lee needs shoes.

http://www.urbanoutfitters.com/urban/catalog/productdetail.jsp?itemdescription=true&itemCount=60&startValue=61&selectedProductColor=&sortby=&id=15611825&parentid=M_SHOES_SNEAKERS&sortProperties=+product.marketingPriority,-product.startDate&navCount=108&navAction=poppushpush&color=&pushId=M_SHOES_SNEAKERS&popId=MENS_SHOES&prepushId=

http://www.fluevog.com/code/?w%5B0%5D=attribute%3AMens&w%5B1%5D=order%3Afresh&pp=1&view=detail&p=6&colourID=2537

http://www.fluevog.com/code/?w%5B0%5D=attribute%3AMens&w%5B1%5D=order%3Afresh&pp=2&view=detail&p=51&colourID=2062

http://www.urbanoutfitters.com/urban/catalog/productdetail.jsp?itemdescription=true&itemCount=60&startValue=1&selectedProductColor=&sortby=&id=16457467&parentid=M_COLL_NEWSHOES&sortProperties=&navCount=12&navAction=poppushpush&color=&pushId=M_COLL_NEWSHOES&popId=MENS_SHOES&prepushId=

These last shoes should be shipped to my house. Because I'd paint them for you. Nothing beats a good ole pair of custom kicks by yours truly. 

This is...

...neglect in its purest form. Much apologies, my dear birds. Blair is back.

You know, I used to feel bad about listening to my music too loud, but I recently came to this conclusion: People need and deserve to listen to these little ear gems of mine. I've always prided myself on my taste in music. I keep it local. I keep it fun. Enjoy. 

YearBooks were delivered today. And of course mayhem was included. "OMG SIGN THIS WITH ALL THESE FUNNY INSIDE JOKES THAT I WONT REMEMBER COME NEXT YEAR!!!"

Geez.

I was astounded at the poor grammar of my generation. It's a horrible realization. Text messages. Research papers. Speaking in general. It makes me sick.

Neglect in its purest form.

_________________________________.

How much am I?

I 

have insane writers block. and there is a bird on my shoulder. 

i'll write again when he isn't looking.

i'm to tired to pay attention to grammar rules. that really says a lot, folks. 

Loss of Respect?

I have quickly lost respect for a lot of my fellow students. Laughing at inappropriate things. Making fun of unfortunate things. And honestly, it infuriates me. For goodness sake, people! We are old enough to be mature. I can't really explain things, but maybe there is a chance you understand me...

Phk.

I just deleted this entire blog. My heart stopped and I almost wept.
But It's back. However I don't think my heart is beating normally yet.

Good gracious.

Omegle (II)

Stranger: Do you have anything interesting to say?

You: I'm sure i do

Stranger: Shoot then

Stranger: *cough

You: Hold on..I need a minute to type.

Stranger: Oh I would not want to rush you.

You: Close observation of a single subject, whether it is as tiny as Pasteur's microbes or as great as Einstein's universe, is the kind of work that happens less and less these days. Glued to computer and tv screens, we have forgotten how to look at the natural world, the original instructor on how to be curious about detail.

Stranger: That is not true.

Stranger: Plenty of people do it

Stranger: Just not the majority.

You: Yes. But it is true in some cases. However that was just a generalization.

Stranger: Plus, the truth is in the details.

You: Yes.

Stranger: Do you watch a lot of TV?

You: No i do not.

Stranger: Any at all?

You: Not really. I do sometimes. But I don't watch certain shows.

Stranger: See- I gave it up entirely.

Stranger: Just a waste of time really.

Stranger: Serves no practical purpose.

You: This can be true.

Stranger: Even the history channel. 

You: However, there are things that can be learned from the form of media.

You: But that information can be found elsewhere.

Stranger: Televised media?

Stranger: Is that a joke?

You: Not really.

Stranger: Do you own a TV?

You: Not personally. There is one in my parents house though.

Stranger: Ok.

Stranger: Watch the news sometimes.

You: Why should I watch the news?

Stranger: It always follows a pattern.

Stranger: Observation of phenomenon.

You: It has its way of hooking viewers.

Stranger: They always show a few crisis stories, then a mildly boring or semi-comical story.

Stranger: Yeah.

You: It's all geared on gaining more viewers.

You: Which causes the view to stray from the basis of the story.

Stranger: When people think of subliminal messaging they think of hidden words.

You: But it isn't always that.

Stranger: Usually it is just the camera angle or film techniques.

You: The angle changes at least every ten or fifteen seconds. Your lucky if it even takes that long.

Stranger: watch a commercial. The shot changes every 3.5 seconds like clockwork

You: Always music playing behind sitcoms/soap operas.

You: Nothing is really real anymore.

Stranger: In children's commercials it changes as much as every 1.2 seconds.

Stranger: Nothing was real to start with.

You: True.

Stranger: Artist use lies to tell the truth right?

You: Explain.

Stranger: But there is no art.

Stranger: Explain?

Stranger: Ok.

Stranger: The novel 1984 was used to indicate the possibility of dystopia.

Stranger: It was fake.

Stranger: A lie. It really did not happen.

You: But that was a fictional book.

Stranger: Yeah.

Stranger: I'm not saying it is a bad thing.

Stranger: My point is that television is serialized.

Stranger: There is no art.

Stranger: You can still find it in film.

Stranger: Some film.

Stranger: Ok.

You: But television isn't necessarily art though.

You: I don't know how you got that.

Stranger: Then what is it. It is not true.

Stranger: And it is not a good lie.

Stranger: So what does that leave?

You: But what does the truth of television have to do with it being art?

Stranger: Nothing.

Stranger: I'm just saying.

Stranger: It is either truth or art.

Stranger: If it is neither than it does not matter.

You: Can it not be both?

Stranger: Yes it could.

Stranger: Do you read much?

You: What constitutes "much?"

Stranger: What was the last thing you read?

Stranger: And why?

You: I'm in the middle of reading now.

Stranger: Ok the book before that one.

You: Read a book right before.

You: Bought three books on Monday.

Stranger: Ok what were they?

You: Listography, The Boy and the Dog are Sleeping, How to be an Explorer of the World, So B. It, Love is a Mix Tape.

Stranger: Never heard of them.

Stranger: Any of them.

Stranger: Non-fiction or fiction?

You: Non-fiction.

Stranger: What is the one you are reading about?

You: How music has the ability to bring people to other places, and how it can trigger a person's memory just by playing a certain melody or harmony.

Stranger: I take it you have experienced this?

You: Yes.

Stranger: Elaborate.

Stranger: That was a verb.

Stranger: As in- I would like to know more about you experience.

You: A lot of good memories I have had have recently been brought back due to me finding certain mixed tapes. And I can remember exactly where I was and what I was doing when I heard each song.

Stranger: Really?

Stranger: Like you hear a song and you remember the place and time?

You: Yes. Even the month and time of day.

Stranger: Do you remember what you were thinking at the time also?

You: Sort of. I remember the general feeling of the time.

Stranger: That's cool.

Stranger: And I'm not just saying that.

That was a recent conversation of mine. The music part at the end isn't really necessary, however that's where the conversation went. 

I was just surprised at the persons ignorance. He posed an argument, however he could not support it. Maybe I am wrong though.

Thoughts?

Omegle

Stranger: but what is interesting...

Stranger: you are stranger

Stranger: but...

Stranger: i am stranger

Stranger: so...

Stranger: we are the same person

Stranger: and yet...

Stranger: i am you

Stranger: but...

Stranger: you are not i

Stranger: you are you...

Stranger: but then...

Stranger: if i am you

Stranger: then you must be i...

Stranger: no

Stranger: we are very much the same now

Stranger: we are i

Stranger: so how am i doing today?

Fascination.

I have always had a love for conversing with strangers. And I've recently learned a lot from them. Maybe my book will be "Things I Have Learned From Strangers" Not really creative, however it would be something. 

I had an argument with Stranger about art and how there was truth in it. And how it really existed. I like to believe I won.  I mean he held a good view, but it wasn't accurate or correct. Just facts he'd heard, I think.

I also talked with someone about science experiments. He was posing the possibility of letting a gorilla play in the NFL. I believe I had nice answers to it. He was surprised I actually gave it thought.

I'll post these lovely conversation at lunch, dear ones. 

Home?

I don't even remember the last time I went home. Nor do I remember the last time I updated this blog. Much apologies, dear ones. 

Drip.

Sometimes, I'll have dreams where I get hurt or sick. And I find myself in the hospital. And I try to imagine who comes to see me. And if I get a lovely card or something of the like.

Well tonight, I strolled on over to the coffee shop and within 30 minutes, I began to feel incredibly ill. Shaking, light headed, and drained. I couldn't speak. I couldn't walk. Not even California jokes could make me laugh. 

I ended up having to get the boys to drive me back to school because I felt so faint. Apparently my body decided to go through a sudden detox due to not taking my migraine medication. It is such a horrible feeling. 

Moving.

As I find myself growing up, I realize all the circumstances in which I must decipher between work and play. Fun and funny. Childlike and childish. And whenever possible and or necessary, I strive for the former of each. 

While in school, there is a definite line between work and play, however, I am always trying to make my work seem like play. I've learned quickly that it is all about your outlook and attitude. 

In movement, I see everything as fun. I'm learning loads of new things and I have gotten so much stronger, both physically and mentally, from it. However, I am often find myself in playful spirits due to me loving to brings smiles and giggles to peoples faces. This, I have learned, must be left at the door once I enter the studio. There is a definite line between fun filled learning and goofing around. 

Although "funny" isn't always called for in the studio, I have found that there is a difference between being funny and being like a child. I have always been fascinated by children. They have this fearlessness about them, and they rarely have the distractions of outside conflict. They are content in there own little world, and this aids in their ability to learn things so quickly. I think if every movement student had the childlike mentality, things would soon be easier, calmer, and wouldn't be this striving for top class rating. 

It is a big step, but once our class has attained the fun, childlike attitude towards our work, we will soon see everything as necessary fun. And the entire atmosphere of our class will change greatly.

Escalation.

I figure there are worse things I could be addicted to. You know, Chapstick really isn't that bad. But why on earth do i find the need to buy six at a time. I guess I just like having options. And a single chapstick isn't guaranteed to be the IT thing. I admit I have a problem, I do. But please don't stop me. My lips love me for it.

Sleeps.

Running on little to no sleep. No energy for complete sentences. Bullets? Yes.

• I slept above a room full of boys. I heard everything they said. They didn't know.
• I brought my guitar to the house. Everyone jammed. I love having musical friends.
• I made pancakes for everyone's breakfast. They seemed to enjoy them. 
• I loved how easy it was for my date to make friends.
• We had a nice drive back.
• We need to talk. 

Radnom.

I applied for a position on Lookbook today. 

I also had a very strange but wonderful dream during my morning nap. I really need to start recording these things.

My peppermint addiction goes along quite nicely with that of the chapstick. I woke up with incredibly soft lips. OH MAN.

I just figured it out. The chapstick addiction has lead to the multiple dreams of random people kissing me. I totally just figured it out. (But I mean, can you blame them?)

I am very ready to be home. Hot water. Bed. Only for moment. Prom. Lets go party, Wood. Pictures later. Maybe on Lookbook? I hope. 

Oh yeah... . . ...

I just found a  journal entry with two really great days. 

Funny how quickly things change.

Thursday.

I bought a Virgin Mary paper weight to go in my gnome collection. 

Every morning, I wake up at 7:15 to go tell the world I am alive. By 7:24, I am always back in bed. Asleep. But what is weird is that every morning, once I am back in my lovely little bed, I have the strangest dreams. I don't know why I don't have them sometime between 2:03 and 7:14, but by no way am I complaining. 

Living the Stereotype.

Art school is only stereotypical on sunny days. 

Home.

I was Adventure Girl for the past four days. 

I slept in the world's largest tent, however it was not the world's most comfortable tent. There were roots and sticks and leaves and all in all earth underneath me. (I was sleeping on an incline at that. Just imagine falling asleep in one place and waking up a foot or two lower) The food was nice considering we were camping. 

 I went repelling and rock climbing on the side of a mountain. And I also went repelling inside a cave. It was the most intense thing I have ever done. Complete Darkness is a scary thing. The water in the cave was about waist high and I was walking along when all of the sudden I step off a drop off of 130 feet. It was such a weird feeling. To have stable ground beneath you and then nothing but water. It made me glad I could swim.

There were times where I was crawling on the ground with water filling half of the tunnel. I could barely move, yet I made it out alive. 

I highly suggest going on an adventure like that one day. I'd love to join you. 

Wave Hello.

There's an idea brewing inside my noggin.

I want to know if there is a way to correspond the tone waves of a picture to the sound waves of different tones. Thinking. Editing. Transposing. It's a long process. And I don't really know how to do it.

Help?

Fluorescent.

The highlight of my yesterday was by far hearing an in depth retelling of how my friends beat The Legend of Zelda. Who knew it could take over an hour. I think I was laughing the entire time.

Ty is quite a comedian. 

Prizz-om.

"Oh my gosh. He's like a local celebrity!"

ummm

Summer Daze.

I played a rousing game of Ultimate Frisbee today. It felt slightly empty due to expelled friends not being there, but I sucked it up and played anyway. I've gotten very rusty over the winter. Hopefully I'll make a comeback soon.

My feet smell like grass, but I guess that's what I get for playing without shoes. 

Dirty feet don't belong on the bed.

History is history.

I jsut took my US History exam. And it was incredibly easy.
However that didn't stop me from doing exceptionally bad. I have a horrible problem of second guessing myself. And it is really starting to hurt my grade.

This has been a horrible day for more reasons than just the above.

Running Backwards.

I found myself back at my old high school tonight. And I couldn't help but remember the previous four years I had spent there. I really liked there, but I am so content where I am now. 

I really have a lot to say.

I just don't know how to say it. 

Where are you, Fanny?

I found myself with an incredibly large work load last night, which was unusual due to the fact that I have been doing a superior job at managing things all year. 

I think the major problem was my assignment for my Computer class, which is more or less just Keyboarding. 

Our latest assignment was to write a business letter applying for a Summer Program emphasizing you major, however I am really not interested in Musical Summer Programs. (Since I was already accepted and given full scholarship to the Spanish program at Summer College, I figured I would just use this instead.)

We were told to make up the details that went into the letter, but they must be accurate. Due to the fact that I only have a Keyboarding Textbook and no teacher, I felt very lost. The text doesn't teach you anything. It merely gives you practice letters to type. I had quite a bit of trouble deciphering the five formats that I was supposed to use. 

And to top off all my troubles, I never installed Microsoft Word onto my little ole Mac of mine. So I was forced to use...oh gracious, do I dare say it? I was forced to use a PC. (It's horrifying, I know. I feel very contaminated.) Gosh, I had no idea how much I had adapted to Macs. 

Goodness. It is 8:34 in the morning. The world hasn't seen my face at this hour in quite some time.

I'll be in the May issue of Vogue.

I was needed for a little photo shoot this evening. 

Hop in a phone booth, looking like scum. Jump out looking like America's Next Top Model.

Here's a little picture I managed to snap afterwards. 

I spy.

I am having blog troubles. Nothing will show up. 

Dear God..

Please let this be a temporary problem.

Amen.

Nothing is saved. Anywhere. Except Here.

Heart, please start beating again. 

Writers Block.

It appears I have hit a wall.

I absolutely cannot find something to write about.  Writer's Block. What an inconvenience. I took a Journalism class when I was thirteen. I had a very good teacher and I wanted so badly to impress him. His mother died, and while he was gone, he gave us an assignment to write about the importance of education. The majority of the class did a half-ass job seeing that it was only a "Filler Assignment," But I really wanted to create a good paper. And it took me about two weeks to finish. My teacher said this was perfectly fine because he understood that I was working quite hard on it. And of course, after a while, I finished. 

He read it to the class, and quickly jumped in at picking me apart.

I highly doubt I could forget his critique.

"You are a perfectionist who is dysfunctionally indecisive. Do you want to  pursue a job in the writing industry?"

- Probably not.

"Well good. Because you wouldn't amount to anything in the writing world."

And that was that. Hours of writing and editing. All to amount to nothing.

I don't know. Maybe that's what is driving me to blog so much. I want to prove him wrong. Of course, this little blog of mine won't find major status, but I enjoy updating. And like I've probably said before: I am absolutely fascinated by people. And I find great pleasure in reading other people's blogs/twitter updates/daily booth photos. 

Gracious, my internet is going to cut itself off in very little time. I need to upload this puppy before it gets lost. 

Short film I was in a year ago. My acting was not at it's best, but it was such a marvelous experience. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ollz4r5wVFk

I find it fitting for the beginning of this entry.

Eye am sorry.

I bought some reading glasses today. 

From the dollar store. For some reason, I just couldn't resist the BroRan styled frames. 

(See Dailybooth.)

These are the first glasses I have bought that were not Marc Jacobs. 

I've made up for it by putting on some Lanvin perfume. I feel much nicer now. It's weird not wearing my usual Demeter Gin and Tonic. But this new scent brings me back to New York. I feel slightly sophisticated, although I by no means look like it. 

Today.

Cosmopolitan called "following people on twitter" sexy. 

But this is what I think. Why do some of the people following me also follow over a thousand other little birds? Are they living under the "I'll follow you, and hopefully you will follow me and then I can say I have thousands of people following me" mentality?  Honestly, I find that sickening. You couldn't possibly read every single update. 

I just don't understand. 

38 and Feeling Great.

I think every person I encountered today verbalized the fact that I wasn't wearing a jacket. It was 38 degrees and the straps on my dress were about two fingers wide. 

"Are you not wearing a jacket?" 

-Do you see one, lady?

"Where is your coat? It's cold out."

-I find it very refreshing, Thank you.

The truth is, I refuse to wear a jacket if it doesn't match my outfit. I'm sorry, but it just isn't a sacrifice I'm willing to make. 

It snowed last night. In Mississippi. Gracious it's March!  Now don't get me wrong. I absolutely love it. I guess it just surprised me. And I did not enjoy seeing Facebook albums and statuses about the minimal white powder.

Here you are, sir.

After some thought and consideration, I'd like to pass the Blog Award to Johnny Durham. (pumpkinsplat.blogspot.com) If I remember correctly, he was the first Blog (and Vlog, now that I think about it) that I started following.

Johnny, I love everything about you and your creative outlets. Keep up the good work, my friend.

Where's the plumber when you need him...

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This is me stuck inside of a sink. Mother nearly had to cut me out with a saw. This is, after she finished recording the moment on video.  I was always a very adventurous child.

I wonder how many entries I can make in one night. 

Kindergarten.

"Well, we lost a lot of great warriors at The Battle of Fingerpaints," but we did win, with many casualties on each side, our right to eat all the glue we wanted."

Gavin is my little Kindergarten hero. 

He made this anecdote up because he couldn't remember anything from kindergarten. And I just think that is absolutely tragic. I remember loads from my five year old school days. 

One day at Show-and-Tell, a girl brought a doll dressed in Mexican attire. The teacher told us to guess where the doll was made.  I said it was made in China. And she sounded appalled. Clearly it wasn't from China. But you see, I was a very observant little child. And it seemed that every toy I owned had a "Made in China" sticker on it. So I figured it would be a safe assumption to say the doll was made there too. And to this day, I think it was. 

Just because you are wearing a sombrero doesn't mean you are Spanish. 

Mirror Mirror.

I set foot in this place a little over a year ago. I was wearing my rust colored shirt from my favorite art gallery, my brown BCBG sweater that I got for free, dark washed skinny jeans, and my boots. I don't know if you could call that "artsy" but it was what my parents wanted. I was planning on wearing my Keds. The most love pair of shoes I have ever seen. It's funny to see how many holes they've gotten since then. But I'm getting off track. I didn't know where to go or what to expect. But I walked into the Johnson Institute and my heart leapt out of my body. Hard wood floors, soft yellow walls, high ceilings, and exposed brick. The walls were lined with art work. Some of the most beautiful things I have ever seen. Music filled the hallways, Shakespeare hid behind each door, and I could hear the dancing feet above me. It was pure magic and i was exactly where I wanted to be. 

Now, a year later, I find myself wondering where the magic went. The walls seem to be turning grey. And the artwork looks cluttered. The music behind me sounds strained, and every theatre major's line has an underlying tone of a forced nature. 

Now don't get me wrong, I love this place. But sometimes I long for that first moment I had here. 

Para mi?

A blog award? For me? Good gracious. What a dear surprise. 

This has, without a doubt, made my day.

I wasn't expecting this, so I am far from prepared. Please don't make me say what I am wearing. Oh please..fine.

I'm wearing my dance clothes. (Long sleeved t-shirt, short black dance shorts, and neutral leggings.) I couldn't bring myself to change for the drive back home. 

Lee, you are just wonderful. Overflowing "Thank You's" from the bottom of my heart.

Echos.

I am very ready to go to the hospital tomorrow. I'm sure I'll have loads of fun. I wrote a long blog entry earlier today, but it is in my other computer. Not my lunch box. I am so ready to go home for the weekend. Check the countdown. Follow me on twitter. I don't know. My head hurts. And I wish my father didn't read this. Please stop, father.

In other news, I have a pal named Gavin, and he is really neat.

Graham Cracker.

My suite mate just walked into my room.
"You have a D40?" She was talking about my camera. For goodness sake she was looking at it. Why ask if I have one.
-Yeah. I absolutely love it.
" Well, I have a D60."


Why on earth was that necessary. I personally think she could have worded it better. I adore photography and I can really appreciate a good camera.
But honestly, that just sounded like a story top to me.

You have this? Well I have that.
Suck it.



No Thank You, Madame.

Thanks for Voting for Contestant One.
Watch American Idol Tomorrow on Fox.
Sponsored in part by ATT.

If I hear that one more time, I might go insane.
By all means, I want Jasmine to do well, but gracious. Mr. Computer Voice is getting old.

Grey's.

I have an MRI on Saturday.
How amazing would it be to have Dr. Derek Shepherd as my doctor. Mmmm. Maybe an unknown neuralgic problem wouldn't be as bad with Patrick Dempsey by my bed.

It's not as bad as it sounds. I promise.



In other news, my English teacher is in Hollywood to see Jasmine Murray perform on American Idol. I love having famous friends.

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"This Video cannot be played. Find more videos like this at AOL Video.com"
Now call me too literal, but why on earth would I want to find more unplayable videos?

Signing In/Out

Whenever we leave the dorm building, we must sign out. Whenever we enter, we must sign in.
I find it strange how much my handwriting has changed since August.

I've past the "cute" stage. Past the "elegant" stage. Past the "legible" stage.
I am now enjoying the "graffiti" stage. Yes, I think I'd enjoy seeing my signature on a train car. However, vandalism will get me expelled. So I should probably refrain.

Much love,
::illegible signature::

Head Over Heels.

Isn't your head always over you heels? That's just a though.

I have my MRI on Saturday. I'd like to see a picture of my lil ole brain. Hopefully I can get a picture of it posted. That's bound to get me a view or two. I've gotten over a hundred profile views now. But does anyone read this or at least stumble across it? I'm definitely not one who begs for followers, but it sure would be nice just to know. I hope all is well in the world that is the Internet. I'm going on holiday soon. Backpacking, rock climbing, cave exploring, repelling. It'll be fun to be Nature Girl for a change.

Black Market

I was at the Hospital for two hours this afternoon. Granted, most of it was waiting, but nonetheless it was a Doctor Box. I got put on daily Migraine Medicine. And I have a MRI soon. And I got my blood stolen. The doctor asked if I was afraid of needles, and I almost made a heroin joke, but I refrained.
My vein exploded. So it got stolen twice. I thought that maybe my Intern was a Vampire.
He wasn't.

However, he is going to sell my blood on the Black Market. We'll make a good team.

Lists.

Things In My Bed:
-me
-A Guitar
-My Computer
-Play-Doh
-Pillows and Blankets
-A Capo
-A Lavender Marker
-A Stuffed Owl
-A book
-A Jacket
-A T Shirt

Things On My Refrigerator
-A Telephone
-My Video Camera
-A Calendar
-Soft Pastels
-Sunglasses
-Three Pouches
-Bloonies
-Nail Polish (Silver and Glow In The Dark)
-A Pencil
-Peppermint Wrappers
-A Headband I Knitted
-A Permit Proving I Pay For Electricity
-Paper From My Sketchbook
-Sleeping Pills

Things On My Wall
-Art By Morgan Welch
-Art By Josh Hailey
-Art By My Mother
-Art By Me
-My Paint Pallet
-A Picture From Summer Camp
-A Smoke Alarm


My Bed is Twin Sized. But my Refrigerator is Dorm Sized. I don't know why I have so much stuff on it. Honestly, I hate it. And I wish my desk wasn't around the corner of the room. My walls are normal sized I guess. I have two of them. Lots of space for art. Wanna send me some? I'd give you credit.

Hello, Nancy.

I don't understand why there is so much negative tension at school these days. The Theatre majors are stressed with senior shows, Vocals are pissy about everyone, visual artists can't get projects just right. And no one knows how to communicate anymore. It seems as though yelling is the only way to get a point across.

And I just don't like it. If you communicate with a spin of positivity, maybe people would be more inclined to listen.

Witty Title.

I dance dance danced all night.
Jasmine Murray is really great. Google Her. She lives across the hall.
Vloggin is neat.

Hello Johnny.

hey jackson.

Scripted.

I really don't want to hear it. All this about scripted reality.
For goodness sake. Let us enjoy our show.

Don't make it science.

I am nobody.

Do you know what it is like to owe your soul to something?
I do.

I owe Blockbuster $146.
How on earth...

10:00

It was a wonderful feeling waking up at such an hour this morning.
Almost three extra hours of sleep will do the body wonders. Granted, I didn't have breakfast. But that was quite alright. Back to the ole grind? No sir. I'm sleeping more than ever.

Shower Power

I can get effectively clean in under two minutes.
Thank you dorm room living.


I would like to blame my mother for not enrolling me in ballet when I was a small kid. I had five dance auditions with most of them calling for some French term that I did not understand. I'm sure i didn't do too well.
But that's alright. For all I know, I'd end up forgetting these performances as well.

Bread Box Freezer

In my very small freezer, I keep a bag of frozen fruit. That's all that will fit. But today when I ventured into the frosty box, I found ice cream. I do not eat ice cream at school, so it clearly was not mine. As it turns out, my roommate decided to stash her goods in my foodsaver because hers was unplugged.

I'm tempted to eat the ice cream myself. And leave her an empty box.
(I would never do that)

The One Hundred

I recently purchased a book called "The One Hundred- A guide to The Pieces Every Stylish Woman Must Own" by Nina Garcia.

Honestly. When have I ever cared about what is pertinent in the life of my closet? For Goodness sake. What is a Caftan? And could you please define an "Investment Bag?" My favorite outfit consists of a plaid button-down and skinny jeans tucked into my boots or leather high-tops. I don't know when I got this sophisticated persona about myself.

I'm quite content with my ragamuffin look.